This entry is directed torwards anyone who can't keep their mouth shut...I am sick of hearing people talk about stuff that they have nothing to do with...it's none of your buisness...leave it alone. Quit acting like your in high school and move on with life. Things like people having fire at their houses isn't necesarily funny. And it really serves no purpose being posted online for others to see. Yes...I had a fire at my house. But don't go and spread it around for virtually anyone to see...and then on top of that add on a "haha" at the end of the comment.I don't find that amuzing in the least. Just imagine if it happened to you. I'm upset..because I'm sick and tired about reading shit online about me. Do you have nothing better to do?? My life...which means it's my choice whether or not to make certain things public. It's not automatically a free chance for someone to go and post things online about me...or about what happens to me.

I looked this up after Travis was talking about it at work....



Coldplay
The Scientist

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are

I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart

Tell me your secrets
And ask me your questions
Oh let's go back to the start

Running in circles
Coming up tails
Heads on a silence apart

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard

Oh take me back to the start

I was just guessing
At numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart

Questions of science
Science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart

Tell me you love me
Come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start

Running in circles
Chasing our tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard

I'm going back to the start

I don't know whats going on anymore. Just when I think I might have some things figured out-it all comes back in my face. I've come to the conclusion that some men never grow up-they're stuck in this imature-fuck every woman that walks by phase, and it's really beginning to piss me off. I have no problem with having some fun every now and then, but I'm not some common street whore who is there for their every need whenever they want it. I'm also not something that an be passed around like their favorite toy to all of their friends. That really pisses me off. I don't know if i should be flattered or insulted that this is happening. It's beginning to be disgusting. I'm just disgusted with everything right now. I start at sendiks tomorrow-so I'm kinda excited. Anyways peace out.

umm yeh....today was hard

>>>shelly<<<I can't believe that you're leaving for school on Wed. The time has gone by so fast and I really am going to miss you bunches. You've really been one of the best friends I could ask for...and the funniest one too. It's hard to imagine not getting a phone call from you at 9 at night asking for me to come over and watch a movie....(which we never seem to acomplish anyways cuz we're too busy looking at guys online) You're there for me when I've needed someone to talk to, or if I have a problem, and thank you so much for that. I feel so awkward writing this...for one:i can't believe all of this is happening. and two: i dont want it to sound lesbionic. Alrite. I need to stop this before i start crying or some shit. Remember to "be safe". Or I'll kick your ass-lol

this is to neone else i know at school:I miss ya and you better keep in touch or I will kick ur ass too...lol

where to start..this weekend was hellish except for the two parties I went to and that I talked to Johnny on sunday. The other stuff is a long story thats making me cringe. To make this week a lil easier on me..Johnny is coming into town on Wed for dinner and whatever else. I just miss him to pieces right now.  And Wed will just be a hard day for me...and bittersweet too.

Okay-so friday night was amazing, I won't even lie about that. I was nervous as hell at first but everything turned out great and there will be plenty of second times. And Janesville isnt that far to go to see someone like him-at least I don't think it is. I seriously can't even get friday out of my mind-it was just that great. Anyways-summer is winding down,people are leaving soon and I'm so glad that i'm going to have other friends here to keep me company in the meantime-that doesnt sound right-what I mean is I'm glad that I have plenty of friends staying in town. So I'm gonna get going.

p.s:I love fall out boy

Ashlee Simpson - Undiscovered Lyrics
Take it back, take it all back now
The things i gave, like the taste of my kiss on your lips,
I miss that now
I can't try any harder than i do
All the reasons i gave, excuses i made for you
Are broken in two

All the things left undiscovered
Leave me empty and left to wonder
I need you
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you
Yeah I need you

Don't walk away

Touch me now how i wanna feel
Something so real, please remind me
My love, and take me back
Cuz im so in love with what we were
Im not breathing im suffocating without you
Do u feel it to

All the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me empty and left to wonder
I need you
Yeah I need you

When im in the dark and all alone
Dreaming that you'll walk right through my door,
Its then i know my heart is whole
Theres a million reasons why i cry
Hold my covers tight and close my eyes
Cuz i dont wana be alone

All the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me empty and left to wonder
I need you, I need you

Cuz i cant fake and I cant hate
But it's my heart
Thats about to break
You're all i need
I'm on my knees
Watch me bleed
Would you listen please
I give in
I breathe out
I want you, theres no doubt
I freak out, I'm left out
Without you, im without
I'm crossed out
I'm kicked out
I cry out
I reach out
Don't walk away
Don't walk away
Don't walk away
Don't walk away

I am really in love with this song right now.. Scars by Papa Roach

"Scars"

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

[Chorus:]
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

[Chorus]

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever come around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

summer is getting old. It's soooo damn warm outside and like uncomfortable and I just don't want to do anything. So anyways...isn't my trip to Whitewater coming up?????? Gosh what fun it will be. At least things are patched up now and we can go on and do whatever we want to do-at least I think. Anyway....a night in whitewater-overnight-yes!!!! Anyways I just thought I would update because I've been quite lax about it lately and yeh I shouldn't be.

wow so it's the first of august and pretty soon people will be leaving for school again and stuff and yeh...it's gonna suck. But I am determined to keep in touch with everyone. So this last week was crrrraaaazzzzzyyyy to the max. But it was fun all the same. I've come to the conclusion that Ally and I have a ritual of hanging out on a Sunday night. We went to Charlie and the Chocolate Factory with Nick and well..Nick didnt stay-but whatever. The movie was a lot better than I thought it would be. The effects are amazing. And I've come to the conclusion that Tim Burton is a genius in his own right. Well this past Saturday, Redding krista and I went to german fest and saw some nice sausages...no pun intended. Then I went to the zoo with red-dawg and her family. which was fun cuz i haven't been to the zoo in a long time. I've been pondering a lot of things lately, and sometimes its just like..."what should i do?" But I'm letting it all come to me and see what happens. I don't want another chance to slip by me...because I just can't let that happen ever again. Okay...so before i  start getting real deep here-I'm gonna go.